Letting Go
2023 - Present
Letting Go
In this body of work, I approach clouds and open sky as spaces of transition, where forms gather, dissolve, and re-emerge. Moving between observation and abstraction, the paintings explore atmosphere not as a backdrop but as a shifting perceptual field. Subtle changes in tone, color, and surface create immersive spaces that feel both expansive and unstable, emphasizing the moment when something is in the process of becoming or disappearing.
The work is rooted in lived experience. I always return to the sky when seeking solace. From 2023-2025, I experienced loss and physical pain in my attempt to become a mother. Three months into my first pregnancy, I discovered that it was unsuccessful and embedded in the wrong place in my body. The transition of going from excited about welcoming a child into our lives to having major surgery was shocking. I remember wearing the flimsy hospital gown and being wheeled into surgery. I was told to lay down on a sterile metal table. The surreal experience of fighting my urge to flee and instead putting my body on a cold table where it would be cut open was horrifying. I had to disassociate from my physical self. Storm systems, dissolving clouds, and areas of open light function less as landscape than as emotional and spatial structures.
Through layered paint and gradual shifts in color, the surface becomes a record of time and repetition. Each painting develops slowly, with forms emerging and dissolving multiple times before settling into a final state. This process mirrors the ideas that run through the work: letting go, surrender, and the instability of control. The paintings do not attempt to resolve these tensions; instead, they remain suspended within them.